Scanning Landscapes

It's been a while

2010-11-06T15:11:00.002+01:00

After a disastrous year 2010 (yeah, disastrous!!!) I decided to start again.

1- I'm not happy with my studies. It's been too long I've been doing this, and don't have such a strong interest in it. So, I stop. No more master in nordic literature.

2- I'm not satisfied with my situation. So, I change too. I leave Denmark, and go back to France. I'll fnd a job, spare money and move again.

3- I'm learning Italian, that's new! I'm a very beginner, and I love it so far :-)

4- I'm doing math and physics again, in order to be accepted in a BA in physics.

Big change, he? That's me. I needed a change. I hate being locked. And it's worse, when you're locked in your own mind. I'm also gonna see a shrink, for I may have ADD after all... well, I don't know. We'll see!!!

"Experimental Music With Experimental Intruments" & "Alice in Physicsland"

2010-05-19T15:22:00.000+02:00

This is the third entry. The idea of the day, or - may I say - the two ideas of the day. They are completely unrelated.

As I'm always thinking of a million things at a time, I really had to write those down.

The first idea is related to the two first entries.

EXPERIMENTAL MUSIC WITH EXPERIMENTAL INTRUMENTS

It would be cool to write music with such intruments [the experimental, strange and non-existing ones!] No ordinary intruments permitted. It would be 100% experimental.
It could be so fun! Of course, it HAS to be recorded! Another idea [because my brain makes connections with other ideas!] is to do workshops in schools so that kids would have fun experimenting, building, making their very own instruments and play with them, and it could be related to the workshops idea in the Big Week Festival!

That was one of my ideas today.

The second idea is:

ALICE IN PHYSICSLAND

OK, the title is quite eloquent, isn't it? I'm fond music, yes... but also of other subjects such as physics. I really think physics is the key to understand the Universe and how it works.
It would be nice to write a series of short stories or novels about a young character that discovers the world of physics. So now you understand the title of the idea!
I'm sure it already exists, but maybe not completely.
I would have love so much to read such stories as a kid!
I think it's a good idea. It would cover history of physics, gravity, relativity, quantum physics, astrophysics, string theory and so on, in a very simple - but intelligent! - way, so everyone can enjoy the stories and learn a lot of stuff! Both kids and grown-ups would have fun with these!

That's it for today. Maybe I'll get other ideas before I get to sleep!

The 1000 things to do/learn before I die

2010-05-19T15:11:00.000+02:00

I also thought of all the subjects I'm interested in... Oh my god, this is quite a lot... but... wait a minute... If I put things I've already done, things I'm coming back to, and things I've never done but would like to... I can see a pattern... or at least few interests come out of the lot.

- Music / Arts (painting, drawing, writing...)
- Science / Physics (math, quantics, astrophysics...)
- Languages / Civilizations
- Origins / Evolution [related to science and philosophy]
- World / Wilderness [related to language, civilization, and ecology, nature, and travel!]

These are my principal interests I always come back to. I come back to other interests, just to know a bit more, but that wouldn't be as strong as for those specific interests. Some other interests I just drop them and that's it.

My other interests, to name a few:
- History / Mythologies
- Philosophy / Ideas
- Biology / Medicine / Psychology
- Herbology / Trees / Wild life
- Extreme sports
- Experimental cooking
- Aso.

That makes a lot of different subjects, and one can say "wow... how would I ever do all that?"
Well, I was also wondering that... It's my "High Speed Indecisive" aspect. Which means I want to do a lot of stuff right now and can't decide, so I end up doing nothing, and that's frustrating.
Some other times I can do different stuff at the time.

The point for me was to realize that my studies are not in my specific interests. I'm doing Nordic literature. It's interesting, really. But I'm getting bored with that! But I want to finish my master anyway.

Reward/Duration

2010-05-19T14:59:00.000+02:00

I made the exercise of the Reward/Duration to find out my interests inside my interests. For those who are new to the subject:
The aim is to define what makes us go to new interests and what makes us quit them.

And I come to the conclusion... tadaaaaaaam!

- Discoveries. I love discovering things I don't know yet, it's very exciting!
- I always need something different.
- I want to belong to a group where I feel accepted and integrated.
- I love to learn things, and do, perform things.
- I love to feel things, the sensations.

Some examples to make it clearer.
When I see something I don't really know, my curiosity is put ON. When I see something else that may be interesting, I drop the first to go to the new one. And so on.
I'm a very lonely person, I feel different to everybody else, and I'm not fully integrated. I need to be with people who understand me and accept me for who I am.
I'm a very sensitive person, and for example, I love to bike in the snow just for the sensation and the sweet sound of the wheels in the snow!
And I like to gerenates ideas, and artistic stuff, and create/write/perform it.
I also love to do stuff, like odd jobs with my dad when I was a kid, constructing wood forts, furnitures... I love using my senses.
And sometimes I have fun finding relations and links between different things.

I could sum up like this:
- Discovery - Ideas - Performance - Learning by doing - Feeling - Belonging

But... I hate the administrative stuff and organization stuff.

For the duration, it really depends on the activity. I can spend hours and hours reading things of interests and then, when I have enough, I drop it. And I can also spend few minutes on other things, and that's enough.

I need to work on that to define what I can do. I discovered that I am a mix of a Cyclical Sybil and a Sequential High-Speed Indecisive. I have my specific interests I drop and come back to, and some other interests I drop and never go back to.

The Strange but Awesome Non-Existing (Yet!) Music Instruments!

2010-05-19T14:50:00.000+02:00

This is the second entry. I Imagine lots of things. And that evening was just wondering how my music would sound like if I played it with unusual and strange instruments that don't even exist (yet!)

OK some of them exist - or are easy to reproduce. Those are experimental.

I'll put picture when I can scan my book and the drawings I made.

The first instrument I thought of is like a hollow wooden egg to the size of a soccer ball. It would be round or elliptic, with a flat face that has a hole, and strings. The whole instrument would do the amplifing effect. I called it (stupid name!) the Egg-Tar (Egg+Guitar).

The second instrument is far easier to make. Actualy, it's like a double bass (or a violin or the like!) made of a cooking pot, a metal stick and strings. By pulling the strings against the metal stick, we can produce different notes. I called it the Cooking Double Bass. (Or Cooking Ukulele, or whatever!)

The last one is just an artisanal and experimental glockenspiel or xylophone. Just need to fix two drumsticks in a shoe box, and put metal or wooden plates on it. Inside the box, a micorphone so it can be amplified. I call it the Xylobox.

I sure can think of other instruments that one can built out of anything home. After all, all kids play drums with glasses!

Project 1

2010-05-18T13:49:00.000+02:00

This is the first entry of my Daybook. I had a similar (but smaller) idea that didn't work out. I see things a bit differently and this idea is bigger, wilder... The idea is to make an amateur arts festival during a week, in the whole city and take the city as a big stage and a big theatre, a big museum.

- For non professional, that means unsigned artists, students, international people, tourists, anyone who is not a professionnal (or not yet!)

- There should be sign-ups to make a program

- It should be discussed with the municipality of course, to get the possibility to do that and see what spots in town we can use.

- It can be discussed with museums, banks, universities, school, and other business company to get some sponsoring - so the festival would be free / as cheap as possible for everyone.

- There would be walls with paintings, street open-air "cinemas" and so on, to display visual art.

- There would be open stage, so anyone could come as they are and play something.

- People walk in the streets, and are the public.

- Workshops for kids, seminars about arts, techniques. People talk and share their arts. -> Creative spontaneous collaborations!

The City as a museum, a concert venue, an open air theatre.

That is the big idea. There's already lots of festival, but I don't think any of them reunite all arts. I would like to see videos, movies, musicians, comedians, sculptors, writers and so on. This would be very dynamic, very cultural, could be international, and would give a good image of the city.

I put this idea in my 6-years calendar. Maybe I will drop it, maybe I will stick to it. Who knows? The first person to inform is, of course, the mayor. But I have other plan for now, so that will wait.

A New Day

2010-05-18T01:32:00.000+02:00

It feels like I'm born again. It feels so good to see, to know, that there's plenty of people who exactely experienced the same problems. To notice at last that "I'm not crazy!"

Today is a new day, because it's the day I started my Scanner Daybook. Just today I feel better about my life, because I'm gonna change what is wrong. Or at least, in the end, if I don't succed, I would have tried.
It's easy to complain. But complaining is a passive way. If one doesn't move, doesn't do anything, sure, nothing will happen. If one does something, then maybe something will happen.

A friend of mine's used to say that. It is so true.

After years and years of questions, wondering what's wrong with me, wondering why I couldn't achieve anything according to the world's stantards, I finally got into answers.
Some people even love my life. That's amazing. I found an echo.

So here it is. The blog of my Daybook. I hope I'll update it quite often. The priority goes to my actual Daybook - a big blank notebook (with the first entry, the Scanners headquarters, and the list of things I've done so far.)

This is a New Day. And also the National Day in Norway. But that is another story... maybe I'll tell you more about Norway one day... Who isn't interested in why Norway's got two official languages, anyway? Ha!